I've erased 3 long ass posts just to say....And take this with a grain of salt because this works for me, but maybe not you....Man, just don't ever try to replace negativity with negativity. Every time I get in a rut, I try to learn a new skill....Will I ever use it professionally....Probably not, but guess what. I can swim now....2 years ago, despite being raised on the gulf coast....I could not swim, and was scared to try. Just find something you think you can't do, or have resigned on ever trying and try it.