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Got an appointment with the neuro-oncologist next week


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Yippie more medical bills.

I'm pretty sure it's nothing too serious the neurologist said he wanted to take a conservative approach at the time. Just wanted to make sure I get all the proper follow up.

 

But

 

Is it bad that I kind of low-key hope I need surgery or something I could use the break from work and I bet they'd let me come back in working part-time at first or something which would make things so much less stressful on me

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It's not really bad per se. It's more like wanting a physical validation to a particular situation - with a medical issue, surgery is a definite physical validation. It's a blaring sign saying 'I told you shit happened' . 

I'm still hoping it isn't serious for you though. Brain surgeries freak me out. >.< And I'm not even the one looking at one! 

Is there some way while you are dealing with things that you'd be able to get reduced to part-time or different hours anyway as a preemptive health thing? Reduced stress helps things heal faster and even some non-invasive procedure could always use some extra relaxing time. 

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19 minutes ago, katt_goddess said:

It's not really bad per se. It's more like wanting a physical validation to a particular situation - with a medical issue, surgery is a definite physical validation. It's a blaring sign saying 'I told you shit happened' . 

I'm still hoping it isn't serious for you though. Brain surgeries freak me out. >.< And I'm not even the one looking at one! 

Is there some way while you are dealing with things that you'd be able to get reduced to part-time or different hours anyway as a preemptive health thing? Reduced stress helps things heal faster and even some non-invasive procedure could always use some extra relaxing time. 

I haven't told anyone at work about it yet, don't want to worry everyone over nothing until I know for sure what's going on

I did talk with my supervisor today about how I've been feeling burnt out and the topic of me going to part-time did come up. Apparently it happens more than you'd think and they would rather just let people go to part time than see them leave the company. Only thing is part-time staff apparently can't get health insurance and also idk if it would work financially I'd have to really look at our budget

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3 minutes ago, scoobdog said:

Are you burnt out because of the hours or the work itself?

The hours, mostly. To be more specific, the productivity requirements.

My job requires at least 52% of our time on the clock to be "productive", meaning either face-to-face or on the phone with clients or with a natural support of our clients coordinating on their behalf. That's an easy enough number to hit by itself, but the population I deal with has some more severe mental health issues than those in other programs so we have a higher rate of no-shows, cancellations, and people who only want to meet for 20 minutes rather than an hour or more. Usually if that stuff happens you just find someone else to do a drop-in to fill your time. But lately I have had absolutely no motivation to do that. I'll schedule people for an hour and if they cancel or cut things short, I'll just drive around aimlessly until my next client or go to the office and work on notes or something.

And, worst of all, we are expected to make up our vacation time. Meaning, for example, if there are 22 work days in a month but we take 2 off, we are still expected to hit the same productivity standard as someone who worked all 22 days. This includes sick, vacation, personal days, as well as agency-wide holidays. This is a HUGE issue for me as taking time off is my number 1 way of dealing with burnout but because of this policy, taking time off just makes things worse because I feel pressured and feel like I have to work twice as hard to be able to take a day off.

My supervisor has assured me that there are others on my team who never hit minimum (I've almost always hit it up until these last 2 months. But I was mostly only low because I took vacation in July and August) and that I am a valuable member of the team and will not be fired or even formally written up for not hitting minimum or anything, but it still causes stress and is just part of a bigger issue that's been building for awhile. I like what I do but this job can cause burnout for anyone, I'm not quite to the point of full burnout yet but I'm getting there and I worry that without being able to take time off I'll be there soon.

I had the thought that if I were "part time", I would have no trouble maintaining the same amount of productive time I do now but since I'm working less hours, I'd be able to hit a higher percentage and worry less about taking time off.

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38 minutes ago, Athena 92 said:

I haven't told anyone at work about it yet, don't want to worry everyone over nothing until I know for sure what's going on

I did talk with my supervisor today about how I've been feeling burnt out and the topic of me going to part-time did come up. Apparently it happens more than you'd think and they would rather just let people go to part time than see them leave the company. Only thing is part-time staff apparently can't get health insurance and also idk if it would work financially I'd have to really look at our budget

As hard as it might be, this might be one of those times where you confide in a manager regarding your current health issues. It can be hard because it might feel like you are only saying something for pity but you are not. Form it in a way that lets them know you are telling them because you feel they should know in case something happens. A good manager won't go blabbing to anyone else about it so the only people who would know would be whoever you tell and they should be more willing to work with you on schedules and stuff without anyone else really being the wiser because it's gone from 'burn out' to 'medical necessity' - totally different rules on that. You aren't running screaming from the building, you still want to work but you need time for yourself too. 

I've been in this position myself. The only people to know anything was going on were the other managers just in case someone needed to step into my position for any extended period of time. My schedule was moved around a little to accommodate various doctor crap and no one outside of the few that needed to know were aware of anything going on. In the end, I didn't lose all that much time, recovery occurred and all that really remains is that some floor tasks [ like lifting heavy items and going up and down ladders ] were switched out to other things that still need to get done. Similar could be done for you with your hours adjusted and your minimums changed to show quality not quantity - lessened load, lessened stress, slower burn to actual burnout that might even flicker out because you'd still be showing yourself that you can handle this while dealing with the other. :)

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1 hour ago, scoobdog said:

Honestly, that sounds more like the job than just the hours.  It appears as if the job is structured in a way that makes it difficult for you to connect with the people you are working with.

Idk. It's complicated. I like what I do and I get that they need to have some way of measuring that we're actually doing our jobs and not just sitting on our asses all day, but I don't really like how they do that right now especially since my program is so different but still has to adhere to the same standards

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9 hours ago, Athena 92 said:

And, worst of all, we are expected to make up our vacation time. Meaning, for example, if there are 22 work days in a month but we take 2 off, we are still expected to hit the same productivity standard as someone who worked all 22 days. This includes sick, vacation, personal days, as well as agency-wide holidays.

The further I read this the more I think "Wow, that is some real bullshit."

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