I hate how carefully you have to be not to get to stimulate...to always check your thinking and not get depressed..to always take your meds on time and not immediately spin into mania or depression.
I took my meds at 9 instead of 7. Passed out without even doing my hair and proceeded to have the scariest mind melting dreams telling me i needed a shot of antipsychotics to make them stop...just nightmare after nightmare and powerless to stop them. All because i took my meds 2 hours late. It was excruciating and horrifying as fuck.
So even with the 4 meds i take, i still suffer horribly. And itll be this way until the day i die. No cure!