good. suicide sucks dick. one time i tried to drive off the road, one time i laid down with a loaded shot gun in my mouth and flexed not knowing if god would end it (marginally),
one time i hung myself and someone caught me, i used to take bottles full of pills and lay around and ache hoping i would die, i was a cutter a little but i hate that kind of pain.
let me explain that a little pain in the soul isnt like pain in the body. im not afraid of eternal belonging, but physical pain scares the fuck out of me