Nah mania is you acting crazy and believing all your ideas while everyone around you is like bitch chill the fuck out as you take off all your clothes and believe youre the messiah
or your black out mania where youre either angry as fuck and say stuff you dont remember or yeah the suicidal stuff
but not all disassociation is mania , this is about disassociative disorders, where i cant remember having this conversation even though ive been told ive had it many many times, or when ive woken up in places and dont remember how i got there , Or where i come out of this unfeeling autopilot and then feel everything and have to calm the fuck down , or when I shut down after dropping a french fry because im extremely afraid and feel like someones about to punch me. it aint enlightment, its torture