Neko

Tinder is a trip... My face attracts couples and many wants a threesome. Dunno what I could do about their issues...but it happened again today. That and random dick pics.

Drugs require trust for me...I went through an experience that just zapped all the trust within me...and externally to me. It made it hard for me to get out there and hang around with people. I'm pretty chill, but I freaked out for like 3 years...haven't been up from that yet.

Hoping it comes true for ya...babies and you all make the world go around.

Yea, I've lived in those conditions, no water nor light...only as an adult, with a house full of people because of love and maybe foolishness. Was in college, and had an option to move back with dad, ended up doing that. Many times I watched these same people get their hair and nails done and ask me for money to cut the lights on. It was crazy. Most of the time I wonder how long I was sick...still am if I'm going through this shit. I spend excessively a month. My bills are outrageous...no real reason for such high bills. When I sit them out, most makes sense...some do not. But cutting down is going to have to be my main priority in order to make this true.

I wouldn't touch much past weed at this point. Sometimes I'm chill, sometimes I have mild creeping paranoia...but when I'm chill, almost everything is funny.

I know who have a few, every so years just to put them all on checks and get money from foodstamps...one lady makes over a thousand a month in foodstamps and sells some...grill, that's shit my sister had to put up with one of her husband's baby mama.

You see, with traditional surrogacy, I would have to use my eggs to help out a couple in need. I have no problems with this, even have genetic screening but besides prostate cancer and schizophrenia, not much shows up. It's not a strong desire to give anyone schizophrenia, however there is a chance that they will not develop it. I'll see about this later. There is a board to help some people to have kids through whatever way possible..

A good mother is how everyone strives to be, I hope. However I do know some welfare queens who have kids for money. It kinda makes me feel some type of way and it's hard for me to see these kids in trouble.

That's they way it goes, however I do plan on continuing the thread. I just with it won't be about "just her" or "attack her" and keeping it more on track...yes the idea is there. No real way to put it into action atm...however watching youtube videos and happy couples are making me remember when I once had goals. Please don't be offended, It's a general post but I notice that people will attack others all the time. I pretty much don't bother with most...I'll handle it if it gets too out of control.

Kinda my problem....It's a few that makes it bad for it all. Why a man, woman, Jared from subway, or anyone for that matter would find any satisfaction from killing themselves and their innocence is beyond me. You are pretty dead to go through with hurting someone so.

Tbh...with less inflammatory behavior from each one of us and a bit of grow the fuck up, we could all get along just fine...but this is an anime base community so I'm not expecting much. I just tend to get a long with most people in general. I like most of you all, some I have words to say, but for the good for all, I keep quiet. That what makes shit work, you must express yourselves but in a way that won't always end up destructive or you eating yourself or bending over backwards for someone or something you don't like. I really wish that people realize this...hate destroys, talking like adults don't. With love and nothing personal cutie...just a general post. pls stop.

That's the problem, watching people flip from reality to fantasy, to anime/hentai shit...talking crazy shit in the news...no thanks and really yea, there is a movement recently to make pedophilia part of lgbt...kinda scurred of the future.

I'm always out of the house...just at work, or school, or just doing something.

Horrendous, however I'm thinking on a whole bunch of medication brain. Prolly should chill...

I'm not actively trying. Childcare would be a bit of an issue as a single mom. I do not have regular cycles. I doubt that there is paid leave on this job however if I do decide to help out a couple, I'm hoping that they would help a bit out. Maybe not. I'm not sure why it's hitting right now, however...it just is. My meds are fighting the irregularity that my body is going through...not sure why I'm in a negative bio feed back.

Prolly should just have a group of us raise kids in a community.

Why kind sir?

Thank you, this on hold thing is bothering me.

Yes you would cutie....it's based off of boards you...but maybe one day you would have a cutie of your own.

I haven't even tried yet, and with pcos, schizophrenia, hypothyroidism, excessive BMI and pseudo-tumor cerbrii, no man and no trust in sex, I think that it would be a long time...but I'll look up surrogacy and egg freezing meanwhile.

All the crazy that I went through and just upside down and messed up feelings and mentality...there's nothing like helping a couple out, or holding your own, or even watching other's grow and develop. Adoption, surrogancy, ICI, getting married and having babies, foster home kids, all look attractive. I can't even atm.

Lol, save that later for your wife...Right now the turkey baster method might be the one for me....would like to surrogate for a family to help them out, but my body....man I just want to help. Don't want to be a Craigslist rent-a-uterus.

sad but true, my financial situation is dismal, but i'm working to clear that up. I would love to share to help foster someone's strong points as long as it develops them for a good purpose.

401k are taken before tax and incur tax penalties at the time of withdrawl...ira is taxed and is in there for the long run. 401k can be rolled over to an ira.

Indeed, it's possible after my first. Foster care prolly won't let me because of my history with schizophrenia and I would be a single parent. However, most kids would love to have me...I like to cook and I play games. Plus I like school, so I can help with homework and I'm patient.