not to mention it's hard for me to find anyone because I'm not good looking...I'm not a "twink", but I'm not big and hairy enough to be a "bear" so I'm in that gray area where other gay men just don't think I'm good looking, basically I'm gonna die a virgin unless I either become anorexic or devote my life to bodybuilding, Gay men are actually really picky when it comes to sex, and I'm just not fuckable