does anyone know what their attachment style is?

[Still Me]

ive been researching it lately, and I found that im anxious attachment. 

i fear abandonment.

and im sure there are people here who find amusement in my pain but i, after 3 years of building a life and dreams. have been abandoned. 

ill be in my new place by march...this will be the first time ive been alone since getting at at home job...so im thinking of getting a second job just to get out of the house lol

[André Toulon]

Attachment got left in the 90s. It's all about doing what you want when you want then realizing you dont want to do shit 

[PhilosipherStoned]

I've always been a loner, but what Andre' said kind of hits home. I put myself into the dating game a lot to try to stay on my toes, but even when it seems like I might have found something special by that time I'm usually socially exhausted, and not really even wanting a relationship anymore....

[Still Me]

2 hours ago, PhilosipherStoned said:

I've always been a loner, but what Andre' said kind of hits home. I put myself into the dating game a lot to try to stay on my toes, but even when it seems like I might have found something special by that time I'm usually socially exhausted, and not really even wanting a relationship anymore....

I wanted it. I wanted it for the rest of my life. At one point he did to. Now I’m starting over. And I don’t think I can do it anymore. I have nothing to show for my efforts other than pain and trauma. 

[PhilosipherStoned]

Just now, Still Me said:

I wanted it. I wanted it for the rest of my life. At one point he did to. Now I’m starting over. And I don’t think I can do it anymore. I have nothing to show for my efforts other than pain and trauma. 

I once had a meeting with the family of Korean chick about like.....us getting married and shit like that when that was still so far out of our minds. Shit still sticks with me. 

[Still Me]

19 hours ago, PhilosipherStoned said:

I once had a meeting with the family of Korean chick about like.....us getting married and shit like that when that was still so far out of our minds. Shit still sticks with me. 

I don’t think I’m the type people marry. I’m just an idea, a passing thought. Fun for a moment, never forever 

[PhilosipherStoned]

38 minutes ago, Still Me said:

I don’t think I’m the type people marry. I’m just an idea, a passing thought. Fun for a moment, never forever 

Me too lol.  I can't really even envision being married.

[Still Me]

2 minutes ago, PhilosipherStoned said:

Me too lol.  I can't really even envision being married.

I want it tho. To be seen, heard, loved so deeply that the thought me not being with them hurts. Maybe that is too much. Maybe I am too much

[PhilosipherStoned]

2 minutes ago, Still Me said:

I want it tho. To be seen, heard, loved so deeply that the thought me not being with them hurts. Maybe that is too much. Maybe I am too much

It takes a lot of work to forge that kind of relationship, and you have to open yourself up to be let down hard. I'm not good at opening up myself to new potential partners so even when I have some good dates the relationship usually goes stale. 

[Still Me]

22 minutes ago, PhilosipherStoned said:

It takes a lot of work to forge that kind of relationship, and you have to open yourself up to be let down hard. I'm not good at opening up myself to new potential partners so even when I have some good dates the relationship usually goes stale. 

Yeah I get that