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Because I was 14 and in denial of my sexuality? This was back in 2003 bro, years before any sort of major acceptance of homosexuality was even a thing anywhere in our country other than the most liberal parts of California, Nevada, or New York... I was scared out of my mind and didn't want to admit it to anyone. Not to mention, I did not want to hurt her feelings, like I said I am rather gentlemanly in person believe it or not, especially if I don't know someone very well. If I know you then yes I will be crude. Not back then though, I was raised in a strict fundamentalist Christian household in the Deep South Bible Belt. I was a good sheltered Christian boy with no concept of liking other boys other than "It's really horrible and bad and will send you to hell where you will burn for eternity". So that is why, hope that clears things up.

Also sorry for making this thread go real dark and cray cray real fast. Did not mean for this to be downer material.

I'm not sure how that is relevant... she didn't know I was gay, nor did I tell her lol.

Well, I still love you anyways Kudes. Especially cause your avatar is awesome right now.

fuggnificent[/member] This too, I experience some other things though but they are much less worse than unmedicated. Racing thoughts is one of those. They are not unbearable though, and also happen mostly when I am stressed out or working on something for a long period. I don't think the OCD helps with that either.... I was originally hospitalized for the first time back in 2012 when I was diagnosed with OCD, which was a few months after I had been put on the first antipsychotic for Bipolar type 2. My psychiatrist was concerned I was going to mutilate or kill myself. This was also around the time I finally came out to my parents. I was having a nervous breakdown and didn't sleep for almost two weeks (there were brief microsleeps but nothing else), the Doctor told me I had OCD and bad obsessive thoughts and behaviors (like contamination anxiety, obsessive knuckle cracking, checking doors and containers I already know are shut or locked many times) in addition to racing thoughts. They had to put up all the knives and chemicals in our house after I returned home finally... cause I kept obsessively thinking about and also envisioning myself cutting myself with them, slipping on them, or otherwise being harmed by them, or ingesting the chemicals. Luckily I'm on a much better set of meds finally and haven't had anything bad like that happen for about a year now, though I still experience panic attacks sometimes when in public, racing or obsessive thoughts (uncommon stress induced), and very light depression periods. I don't experience hypomania or any of the other more severe shit though that is seriously life-threatening or dangerous to anyone else while taking meds regularly.

NO I WANT YOU TO BE A BOY!!! MY BOY!!!

#beloved #sacredcow

My situation you mean?

I did the same thing to GunStarHero not long ago. Embarrassment! owo

No meant the little brat that blackmailed you. Kids are so mean and malicious sometimes. I never did either actually.... though I my feelings manifested as emotional attachments for other boys starting around middle school (so about 9ish). I was 14 in 9th grade, yep that tongue shoved down my throat was both awkward and brings back feelings of panic and embarrassment to this day. Mostly just embarrassed that I wasn't excited by it and realized I was supposed to be, and awkward cause I didn't want to hurt her feelings... Pretty much all of my attempts with girls or girlfriends in HS went in this manner.

I know you got something, don't put yourself down like dat bro. I'm sure you're fascinating... >__>

It would have definitely been hotter, and probably less awkward and nerve-racking for me. You got any idea how hard it is to try to get a hot overly aggressive girl off you without being rude? I have always been a gentleman for the most part, and also I was still very much in denial at the time so it was not like I was about to make a scene there.... lmao

I bet you really hate Ralph Nader.

This is probably the best possible option, there is no 100% guarantee everything will be ok, but this has the highest probability of a good outcome for sure. And it sounds like if your Aunt remains in that environment she is going to be in serious danger if she is not already.

If you can get physical proof of their living conditions or him being an abusive ass via picture video or documents such as bills or anything it would probably be a good idea to hold on to those.

Well Fugg's op did mention that it sounded like she didn't want them there but they wouldn't leave, I'm assuming she either doesn't have the energy or ability to actually kick them out or is afraid of serious retaliation.

You should try to convince her to let your Mom have them evicted or file a restraining order on her behalf then if you think it is a serious problem (which from the sounds of it probably is). Also highly recommend that at some point you or your mom help her make a written will just in case. If she's on dialysis anything could happen, it's better that her family not get screwed out of shit by some random freeloaders.

Let's cuddle bro.

I am on meds, they don't alleviate all my symptoms though 100%. You don't have some recurring symptoms while on meds? Also I might be on a lighter regiment than you now... I was taken off of 3 of my medication and switched to just 2 + and ass needed sleeping and anxiety aid about 6 months ago. I actually feel better on average though. It turns out that I had significant genetic interactions with three things I was on out of the 5 I was taking.

Poppycock you.

I know but it still was, mostly cause I'm sure he was born before seatbelts or at least before they were common.

Did you kick his ass? ;P

discolemonade[/member] You're a girl? Why do I always assume the opposite gender for everyone online.... literally every time.

Sing me something sometime. Please, I bet you have the voice of an angel.

lmao