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my parents, my living situation right now I'm splitting rent with them

currently we're renting a "house for rent" type situation where we're renting from a private owner and it's basically an old house that's been converted into apartments which is most likely why it's so cheap the neighborhood it's in is.....okay it's basically the mid-point between a gentrified area and one of the falling apart Ghettos of the city (which is basically what all of MD is like, pockets of Gentrification surrounded by ruins) which to be fair even when we were paying $1000 for rent at our last place we lived in the same kind of area

the one I'm in now is ideal price wise short term but i'm basically living in a large closet, each room is small, this one basically only has room for my bed problem is we can barely afford this for $700 a month so I don't see how we could afford something better, since all the better apartments in MD are a couple thousand in fact this is the first apartment we've lived in that we actually CAN afford to pay the rent on time

are we talking a real apartment or a horrifically low rent one like the thing I live in right now?

either way he knows lip contact is something people do when they're in love.....since Chichi apparently does Kiss him so how he could not know what a kiss is in Super makes no sense

AND he's seen Bulma kiss vegeta

also Goku has been kissed before By Chichi

watching Kai the final chapters side by side with Super has made for an interesting comparison in classic Z Goku was oddly hyperfocused and knew what he was doing even though outside of serious situations he tended to be a comically stupid hillbilly with the brunt of the jokes being that he was such a moron nobody could really stand him, not even his own wife, he excelled at battle and Vegeta even said as such in the last ep of Kai, while Vegeta was whiny and belived things should just go his way when he wanted them to and they never did (that said he still managed to have a higher headcount than any other character) whereas in Super Goku is whiny and behaves like a bratty 3 year old who thinks he should get what he wants when he wants it and doesn't accept it when people tell him he can't, while Vegeta is very focused, know's what's right and wrong, steps in to help when others are in danger, and puts the lives of the people he cares about in front of his own, but outside of battle he serves no purpose outside of being a comic relief character who's forced to suck binkies and dance so the viewers can laugh at him secondarily in Z Vegeta was very flippant and nasty to his family, while Goku was overall decent to his (except that time he almost killed Chichi) while in Super Vegeta absolutely adores his family and Goku seems to go to great lengths to avoid his (there's even a moment where he implies to Vegeta that he deliberately avoided being present for either of his son's births and doesn't know their exact ages)

this is a canonical image of Goku and Chichi after their wedding Goku looks extremely unhappy

calm farming simulators like Stardew Valley are a good thing to calm me....which is what I ended up playing if you guys have any other suggestions for nice calming games to play on Steam that'd be nice (''>3>'')(''<3<'') (I'm in a better mood right now than I have been in like 2 months so that's a good sign)

yeah making fake death threads for users we like will do that

yeah I've calmed a little since you guys talked me down from my fear of ALS but I'm still panicking, playing video games sort of helps for right now but long term I'm gonna need actual help from a psychiatrist/anti anxiety meds

Generalized Anxiety Disorder sounds like the most likely diagnosis at this point, as I also have back pain, and back pain is a symptom

yeah I'm still not believing that until something tangible comes out of the claims

that too

nah I looked it up you can only get it if you have Physical health issues in my state not for depression or anxiety if I had money I'd move to LA, it's Actually legal there

(if it's proposed as a solution I may look into Medical Marijuana..it's legal with a license in my state)

also Worchestershire isn't something you put on things as a dipping sauce you mix it with something else before you cook it (or at least that's how I use it....as an ingredient in marinades)

Wiss-ter-sheer

if the weather is nice tomorrow I might go to a mall or bookstore, part of why I have this panic could be because the lapse in things to do over the winter and spring made me too sedentary and I've spent most of the last 2 months laying in my bed doing more or less nothing but drawing

my blood pressure tests as normal