I've been estranged from my family for like 4 years

[jackiemarie90]

Well this whole covid 19 got me thinking how it would affect them, so I looked them up on social media. Found out that one of my cousins, who I wasn't close to, died cause of it recently. My immediate family is ok, for the most part. But still, I knew the virus has spread particularly quickly in my hometown, but it's already killed a family member. I feel like a fool for making so many jokes about it, and not taking it seriously. And even though I have achieved so much separating myself from my abusive family, I do feel guilt for doing so. I think after the quarantine lifts, I might reconnect, not for my mother, or sisters too much, mostly for my grandmother. 

[JeNewBee]

I thought always thought you were strange

Sorry I don't know why I'm like this with serious stuff

[molarbear]

1 hour ago, jackiemarie90 said:

Well this whole covid 19 got me thinking how it would affect them, so I looked them up on social media. Found out that one of my cousins, who I wasn't close to, died cause of it recently. My immediate family is ok, for the most part. But still, I knew the virus has spread particularly quickly in my hometown, but it's already killed a family member. I feel like a fool for making so many jokes about it, and not taking it seriously. And even though I have achieved so much separating myself from my abusive family, I do feel guilt for doing so. I think after the quarantine lifts, I might reconnect, not for my mother, or sisters too much, mostly for my grandmother. 

I made this Meme on Imgur before it left China, I got 7 likes.   It came to America and I'm like "I gotta go to the Store now, I hope I don't get this shit!

 

[avec]

21 hours ago, jackiemarie90 said:

Well this whole covid 19 got me thinking how it would affect them, so I looked them up on social media. Found out that one of my cousins, who I wasn't close to, died cause of it recently. My immediate family is ok, for the most part. But still, I knew the virus has spread particularly quickly in my hometown, but it's already killed a family member. I feel like a fool for making so many jokes about it, and not taking it seriously. And even though I have achieved so much separating myself from my abusive family, I do feel guilt for doing so. I think after the quarantine lifts, I might reconnect, not for my mother, or sisters too much, mostly for my grandmother. 

I'm sorry for your loss ❤️  Also, I am so happy that you set boundaries with abusive people, family or not.  I am going through something similar, so I hear you.