Blackrose321

I haven't been sleeping properly which usually results in me having random thoughts, probably because my brain is so bored with laying in bed staring at the inside of my own eyelids. Last night I suddenly remembered this guy I went out on a few dates with, who my friends nicknamed "Hal" because of his bad breath... Don't know what that was about, his teeth looked fine, but anyways... Hal was a bit obsessive, which I didn't want to judge him for too quickly because I can understand how, if you like someone a lot (although I didn't understand why he'd like me a lot), it can make you a little weird. He wanted to hang out constantly and was pushing for a physical relationship pretty early. I don't think that's all he wanted, he seemed to just want to move us along at a breakneck speed. I asked him for some space one week so that I could focus on work and stuff. He seemed fine with it. Then after work on Friday, I text him about having an article published in my university's tech paper. He snarkily replied, "Wrong boyfriend sweetheart lol". So without asking to be in a relationship, he unilaterally decided we were already in one and then made up this whole paranoid scenario in his head of me cheating on him. All within 2 weeks. This guy is likely still out there thinking he suffered some great infidelity, potentially still scarred from something that never happened. Outside of work, the only men I saw that week were Herbert and Frodo. My roommates' cats. Absolutely wild to reflect on after all this time.

So apparently Jack Black is a child rapist because he wore red shoes in a photo. We may need another pandemic...

Omg that reminds me of the time my upstairs neighbors were having sex at like 2 am. I've always struggled to fall asleep (and stay asleep) so my husband was conked out next to me while I was just laying there in the dark listening to two strangers bang it out.

Grilled chicken thigh and asparagus. My MiL made it and it was so good that I think I'll use the same recipe at home once she sends it to me. I'm so picky when it comes to protein so last night's dinner was a victory.

I've got TMJ and it's bad. It's been bad for 4+ years. It's a daily struggle and sometimes it gets so bad that I can't sleep because I'm locked up so tight. And yet neither my dental nor my medical insurance want to cover any potential treatment. How does anyone look at this fucked up system and say, "Yep, this is good"?

Am I the only person who listens to Kpop?

Visited family this week. While driving through rural PA my husband joked, "How long do you think we'll drive before we see a Harris/Walz sign?" We didn't see a single one until we reached my family's house, where they had a Harris sign in their yard. Anyways, next to my dad's singular Harris sign, our 80 year old neighbor put up two of her own - first, one for Trump with fake news on it. Second, a "Democrats for Harris" sign, apparently posted to annoy my dad but it's such a weird approach. He's the only Democrat for miles so no one is actually going to think he posted both signs, that makes no sense. It's just such a limp-dicked thing to do. This is (one reason) why I don't do political signage - it invites the crazy in. I don't even want passive aggressive crazy.

I don't think any TMJ specialists take my insurance... I might just die like this...

Wendy's Chili. I started going back to the gym and I overdid it yesterday, threw up mid-workout. Not in the gym, I did make it to the bathroom first... But yeah, after that I wasn't in the mood to cook.

I suppose my issue is that I don't feel like discussing it on social media is worthwhile. For every good conversation, there are countless bad ones geared more towards arguing and insulting than understanding and learning. Posting private info online seems like a risk with few potential positive outcomes. Mostly they just put themselves out there for criticism when their son seems to feel like it wasn't necessary to put it on the internet at all. And I think we still ultimately peg young people as the "oversharers" but I see a lot of older people posting things they really should have reflected on first. So the kid being the one to say, “I feel a little bit weird about it, because it's not something you want to brag about or put out to the world or anything." was oddly refreshing. But maybe I'm jaded now, I've cut my social media use waaaay down so maybe I'm just cranky. lol

Tbh I'm not sure where you draw the line, I never thought about it before. https://extension.missouri.edu/publications/g2911 So by that metric, possibly? However, there are states that allow first cousins to marry so there's that. And then there's this: https://fivethirtyeight.com/features/how-many-americans-are-married-to-their-cousins/ All in all, I have no clue - the kid just cracked me up because he was basically like, "TMI, mom and dad!", and he's totally right. Sharing private info online is usually a bad idea. Now this kid is going to have that attached to his family, out there for all to comment on, and for no reason other than his parents decided to post online. And both of his parents are young enough that they should have known better!

https://www.ladbible.com/community/23andme-dna-test-married-couple-cousins-362809-20241008 When your kid has more sense than you. 😅

My MiL has managed to call me by accident so many times and I have no idea how it happens with a smartphone. In one voicemail, my phone transcribed it as "Yeah, Thursday. Dead dead dead."

They have this "live" thing that costs more. But it's not all live stuff, they put whatever they want under that label when it suits them. I'm guessing they decided to put it behind that extra paywall for Halloween but because everyone pays for multiple streaming services now, I watched it on Max instead. Plus, I often have issues with Hulu anyways. It struggles to rewind anything and every so often my audio glitches. It'll get ridiculously loud and echoey or it'll get so quiet you can't hear anything. I have to reload my video and try to rewind. =/

Oh go fuck yourself, Hulu.

It's like rain on your wedding day, it's a free ride when you've already paid, it's the good advice that you just didn't take. And who would've thought? It figures.

Why do I keep waking up before my alarm? I'm still tired and in most cases, I didn't get anywhere near 8 hours of sleep. This has been going on for almost a week now... I'm already ready for a nap.

Are you studying for work or fun?

I was allergic to the bug spray I used while at Cedar Point and now I've got this weird rash on my neck...it really bugs me but I just have to wait for it to clear. >.<

Do you have any suggestions? I've actually been wanting to get a new pair but I couldn't decide on a brand.

We're at Cedar Point. We drove here Thursday and then went straight into the park from 6-10:30. On Friday we went in 11-6 and again from 8 to 11:30. Today we were there from 10 to 3:00, just got back. We're planning on going back again by 8, when the fright night stuff starts back up. The main issue is from the knee down, I just get incredibly achey. I know we've been on our feet a lot the past few days but I'd like to work on it for next year. I was doing cardio boxing (took a break, starting again in 2 weeks) but that obviously doesn't put nearly the same amount of pressure on your legs. I know there are programs like couch to 5k but I need to build even more resilience than that for a park this size. It's just been so long since I did anything that had me walking so much for multiple days in a row. It probably didn't help that I hurt my ankle in July and have been wrestling with an ankle wrap/brace the entire trip.

We're spending the weekend at an amusement park. It's the perfect weekend for it but I don't think I've walked this much since I went to Disney when I was 11... Does everyone just walk around with sore feet or is there a trick?

Potato wedges. We're at an amusement park, staying on the property, and food options that I can eat are limited.

Absolutely, parents are causing problems and that's why I don't trust them to pick up the slack at home. I saw one video posted by a teacher who said that no matter how many 0's they write in their gradebook every kid is going to pass to the next grade. And this is far from being the only time I've heard of this happening. Here's a more recent case: https://www.wsbtv.com/news/local/henry-county/henry-teacher-fired-not-giving-students-unearned-grades-plans-run-school-board/PF55WJPGIRD6FB6HOQCMGCXDVQ/ Mind you, my original point was really just about not assigning homework, not whether the packet was a good idea. That said, you won't be able to convince me that critical thinking skills wouldn't have helped here. You break the packet apart, set an age-appropriate time limit to work on homework, then you follow it up with something fun. This would have worked for the majority of kids. It would have established a habit, bonded parent to child, and showed them how to begin managing big feelings. I know that takes more time and energy but why have kids if you don't want to raise them? They're completely optional...