Lasty Posted May 8, 2018 Share Posted May 8, 2018 (edited) Fuck you, Universe. I'm holding my effort hostage until I can get an ex machina out of this shithole! I did everything right. I'm not perfect, but I've done the best I could and now I'm pretty much content to just wait for things to randomly get better because it doesn't matter how much I pull myself up by my bootstraps, too much of what happens in this random and chaotic life is due to circumstances beyond my control. lol Edited May 8, 2018 by Lasty Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bnmjy Posted May 8, 2018 Share Posted May 8, 2018 Have you ever tried therapy? There are probably free programs available for you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lasty Posted May 8, 2018 Author Share Posted May 8, 2018 Just now, bnmjy said: Have you ever tried therapy? There are probably free programs available for you. Is a therapist a person? They suck. As well intentioned as they may be, like the rest of humanity, they suck anyways. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bnmjy Posted May 8, 2018 Share Posted May 8, 2018 Just now, Lasty said: Is a therapist a person? They suck. As well intentioned as they may be, like the rest of humanity, they suck anyways. That really doesn't answer my question. Yes, people suck, but they also bring you the most joy out of life. You are using your computer right now to communicate with other people after all. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lasty Posted May 8, 2018 Author Share Posted May 8, 2018 (edited) 14 minutes ago, bnmjy said: That really doesn't answer my question. Yes, people suck, but they also bring you the most joy out of life. You are using your computer right now to communicate with other people after all. That human beings are a social species is one of those things I can't control. I really prefer my own company. Being around other people makes me anxious and it's not always a good kind of rush like waiting in line for a roller coaster so much as like waiting on a cancer diagnosis. Venting anonymously online doesn't have the same kind of consequences. I was the only hippie kid in a red neck bible thumping little town. Our family didn't go to church and so the other kids had their parents telling them to be mean to me. I was the devil before I had a chance to demonstrate anything. They were the ones instigating things, but they rotated so it was never the same person and I was the one getting into fights. They tossed me in the retard class and fucked over my social skills. I wasn't stupid, I was angry. I have slowly been getting better, but It's never something I'll be able to master. I'll always be like a cripple trying to climb a flight of stairs while everyone else is oblivious to him, trampling over him to get their piece of cake at the top. Edited May 8, 2018 by Lasty Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CAC Posted May 8, 2018 Share Posted May 8, 2018 yup, I'm feeling the same way right now, I'm ready to give up. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lasty Posted May 8, 2018 Author Share Posted May 8, 2018 1 minute ago, CAC said: yup, I'm feeling the same way right now, I'm ready to give up. Sick of hearing all that darkest before the dawn talk, too? I'm done sugar coating things for people to spare their feelings. They need to learn to cope with life and being Mr. Nice guy isn't fucking helping them do that. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CAC Posted May 8, 2018 Share Posted May 8, 2018 1 minute ago, Lasty said: Sick of hearing all that darkest before the dawn talk, too? I'm done sugar coating things for people to spare their feelings. They need to learn to cope with life and being Mr. Nice guy isn't fucking helping them do that. Yeah I keep hearing that things get better, no they really aren't. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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